I know you're afraid of the cold so please wear more clothes.

I'm worried and waiting at the same time.

Please come back alive.

This is your promise.

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I'm feeling really x12392394609642079269 cold now. It's snowing outside and if I'm not mistaken, the temperature is -5 degree celsius. OMG OMG jumping up and down, swinging my hands, shaking my head, placing my face to the heater(which is not working) to make me feel warm. Psychologically, putting my face near the heater will make me feel warm. Ok, this is when someone who is feeling too cold that whatever they say is not making any sense.

I swear my feet are freezing. Oh, hi newcastle. At least this is better than the boarder of Scotland which i went for the last 3 days for Christmas retreat and it's snowing everyday. We had snowball fight/war. HAHAAH... Good times. Walking on the snow, looking back all the new footprints made by you, seeing so many white for the first time, forgetting about the cold, forgetting about the past, forgetting about anything that's troubling you. Suddenly, you just feel the burden on you shoulder being taken away and carried away and you're free, so free. You feel a sense of peace; emptying your mind and allowing the still air and the beauty of snow and the silence replace the noise of our busy daily lives, the worries, anxiety, the workload, pressures and everything.

It's so amazing how snow is form from droplets of water and fall freely from the sky so gently, softly and slowly. This reminds me of the wonders of God. His creation so beautifully made, our lives He carefully planned, His promises to us. What more can we ask for? What more can we, someone who don't deserve the gift from Him ask for?

One day plus to London and four days plus to Newcastle and then... EXAM!

Exam really spoils the whole holiday mood. I really don't like the fact that when you just return to school, the next thing you know is exam.

Mock exam is over. We have mock exam in the last week of term. WTH right? Again, spoiled the mood of looking forward to holidays. On the brighter note, we don't have prep time and we can do whatever we want and of course what do we do? PACK!

Guess wad? I don't know why is it because our school is damn poor or damn liu bin( money face) that they are opening the college house( where we stay) for people to stay during the holidays. In other words, it's lets. URGHH. IT'S DAMN ANNOYING. We have already settle down and put our stuffs in places and now we have to remove everything. YES, EVERYTHING. This includes the poster you put on your wall.

We asked for meal leave yesterday to catch paranormal activity. OH PLEASE, if that's scary. Let me show you some other asian films. I thought it's really scary and i was so anticipated for it and in the end, i nearly fell asleep for the first 3/4 of the movie. I was so looking forward for some horrors. It's really disappointing. I seek for extreme thrills, horrors and whatever you name it. I am planning to go to London's tomb. GOOGLE IT. Apparently, it's the most scariest place in London. They even won the award of being the scariest tourist attraction or something and it's near London bridge or directly below London bridge.

K la, im still looking forward to holiday minus assignments, essays, revision etc.

No worries.. I'm back to keep you update even though facebook most probably updated you guys already.

And as you know, I'm officially 18. I know I'm legal now. When I'm legal, the first thing i want to do the most is get a license and vroom vroom... drive!! Oh well, so i couldn't learn driving now. I'm so gonna learn it when i go back to Brunei.

What's the feeling of being 18? Hmm.. nothing much i would say. It's just like any other day. Maybe i didn't get to celebrate it with my friends and also i'm away from where i used to be so i don't really feel anything... Just a year older and the earth is still revolving, time still keep going, sun still rises in the east... Everything just have to move on; it doesn't stop there. No, not on 22nd October 2009!

What's special is I am the oldest in my year. I was off schedule the whole day on my birthday and didn't study at all and the people in my year sang happy birthday song to me. Well, it was really special at that moment. Get a different group of people singing birthday song to me is actually unusual as i have the same people singing birthday song to me the past few years. Not saying that it's not good when i actually miss it. I didn't have a birthday cake which is totally different from my previous birthdays. First time without a birthday cake feels really weird to me and new to me. Anyways, we don't need cake to call it a birthday, do we? Well, at least it's not bad I have presents and cards and money. HAHA.

Before half term, the boarding staff organised this cluedo night thingy and we had to dress up like the character assigned to us. I'm marcie masseur; someone who works in a Spa. So we were invited to Belinda bucktooth's wedding reception and on that day itself, Belinda was killed. One of the guests is the murderer or it could be the host too. So at the end of the day, we had to guess who is the killer. I guessed correctly!! The reward is haribou gummy. Well, better than nothing.

Lin yue the rock star(she is the murderer)

love long mirror

the long mirror outside our rooms

In the duty(living) room with wana, Cassie and Mrs Pywell at the back

My senior bought the hand in york dungeon if I'm not mistaken

This is just trying to be a model..

It was a good night as we didn't have to do our prep(homework). Then Mrs. Pywell decided to check our rooms and it's seriously in a mess cos before that we were busy finding clothes for the night and heels and things were all misplaced like clothes on the floor, one side of the shoes near the cupboard, the other is missing, make up on the bed... etc. Well, at least our room is not the worst. In fact, it's the most clean one among college 1. We're proud of it, yes.. we do. Even though i admit i have the most electrical appliances and things with wire or cables laying on the floor and sometimes got tangled up and it's all in a mess but without those hairdryer, straightener, charger and so and so.. My world is going to turn upside down... well not really turning upside down but you get wad i mean.. it would be really inconvenient.

So, after the cleudo thingy, we went straight back to college house and I was playing with my friend's wig. Omg, shouts cool. It's Snow's wig. Yeaps scroll up to the picture up there and yes, Snow is wearing a wig. I was having fun examining the wig and play with it as if it was a toy. The wig cost about 50 to 60 pounds. Awesome much. Anyways, I'll end this post with a picture of

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#Jo

`Every atom of me is missing you

Is it obvious to you
When you walk into a room
Your face is all I see?

And my heart races so fast
I never knew a rush to feel like that
Every time you’re touching me

I never did believe in anything
I couldn’t hold between my fingers
But the way you make me feel
It’s just so real the way it lingers

I get lost inside your stare
Lost when you’re not there
When everything I have doesn’t mean a thing
If it’s without you

If it’s a dream, don’t wake me up
I’ll scream if this isn’t love
If bein’ lost means never knowin’
How it feels without you
I wanna stay lost forever
I wanna stay lost forever with you

No, this feeling doesn’t end
It’s with me everywhere I am
Hope it never goes away

It’s like defying gravity
Losin’ all control and bein’ free
And I always wanna stay

I never thought that I’d let go
Long enough to fall for someone so deeply
Who had the power to erase my fears
And find me so completely

I get lost inside your stare
Lost when you’re not there
When everything I have doesn’t mean a thing
If it’s without you

If it’s a dream, don’t wake me up
I’ll scream if this isn’t love
If bein’ lost means never knowin’
How it feels without you
I wanna stay lost

Don’t tell me where we’re goin’
I don’t wanna know
I like the mystery
I can’t believe we’ve come this far
So far away from where we started off
You found me when I wasn’t lookin’
You found me

And now I’m lost inside your stare
Lost when you’re not there
And everything I have doesn’t mean a thing
If it’s without you, without you

If it’s a dream, don’t wake me up
I’ll scream if this isn’t love
If bein’ lost means never knowin’
How it feels without you

Yeah, if bein’ lost means never knowin’
How it feels without you
Oh, bein’ lost means that I’m never
Gonna be without you
I wanna stay lost forever
I wanna stay lost forever with you